dont let them tame you.

welcomed me with a shattered iPhone screen, a kiss and feet full of mud. not exactly the best way to start off the new year, but that can you do? could have been worse… 2012 is going to be a good year I’m hoping, I’ve never really made myself a new years resolution before … but this year will be different. in 2012 i will no longer let people walk all over me, now being a lover with a giving personality this will be harder than i probably think it will, but i can’t keep living my life to please others when its affecting my happiness. boys are far from an option this year lol, 2011 didn’t bring me good luck with them & unless a miracle happens 2012 will be boy drama free… hopefully. also since i stopped dancing after high school i have felt a piece of me is missing, and also have lost a lot of tone in my body… so in 2012 i will begin to dance again and i can’t wait! 2012 should be a good year despite the things I’m facing, one of them being probation… 4 minors can get you into trouble but I’m strong enough to handle it. bring it on vigo county! so far thats all of got for the up coming year, I’m sure more things will pop up… heres to the new year loves :)

if you asked me how I’m doing, i would say I’m doing just fine. i would lie and say that you’re not on my mind, but i go out and i sit down at a table set for 2, and finally I’m forced to face the truth, no matter what i say i’m … not over you.

If someone wants to be a part of your life they’ll make an effort to be in it , so don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay…

i am i firm believer in this quote and its one of my favorites… if only i really lived by it. i have such a big heart & i am the person who saves that little spot for someone no matter how they have treated me or whatever. and thats where i get into trouble…. i can’t seem to let go of the ones who have hurt me, i always leave a place in my heart for them and let them under my skin, its never good for me. so i have made a goal to let anyone walk all over me, or put up with anyone treating me like shit. I’m going to live for me and allow people in my life who truly need & want to be there.

despite all the recent drama and mishaps i have been experiencing in the last couple months of my life i have realized a lot. since i have had the most awesome luck in receiving 4 drinking tickets in the past year and paying out of pocket over 1,000 dollars to the state of indiana , not doing so well in school and other little things i have realized that this is my chance in life to prove to myself, that i can accomplish something. I’ve never been awesome at school or the perfect student or the star athlete but i realized that is my time to be whatever i want to be. and thats exactly what I’m going to do. i am going to do what makes me happy and worry about me.

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